Real Man!

In two short paragraphs, how can I explain my day. It was quite boring and I felt a little isolated, since I don't have a means of transportation, nor the courage to ask anyone to use their vehicle, so oh well.

The title of the song above is called "The Real Man" and the picture above is a Super Naruto, who is going to murder all the bad guys for causing all the rukus in his village.

I ask myself today. Am I being a real man? Am I creating a life that's worth living? Not really, well for right now, I've been semi-inactive. I am not afraid to make any friggin' mistakes. I eat and take care of myself. The only thing I'd change are some of my animalistic ways, when I transform into an eagle and perch on a tree in my mind. And do nothing but look at all clouds in my mind pass by.

:) My next blogs are going to be a little different, because I'm going to be more focused a particular subject and hopefully elaborate whatever the heavens show me. Such as the SHADOW SELF and accepting it. Conquering that thing and using it's power for yourself. Fun stuff, I hope I have something interesting to say , and a song to match it.
Am I a real man?! I'll let my dreams decide at 4:55 a.m in the morning. lol
I love music!!!

PEACE!

Find Your Way

Find Your Way

It's the beginning of September, my birth month. In about ten days I will be celebrating my 27th birthday. So currently I've been asking myself what have these 27 years been about?

It's rather late however and I don't have the energy to write all that is flowing through my brain cells.

I ran for about 35 minutes. Which is unusually long for my style of cardio. I do plan on making it a usual thing while I strive to become thinner and sleeker. Ultimately as handsome as I can be. I do believe that my body in a healthy way, attracts the company of the good and bad. I surpassed my record of only running 2 miles and up-ed it to 4 miles. Yay! me.!!

I've had a pretty rough few months in the past. It's mainly my fault. I've been letting others invade my life with their drama and instability. The forever flowing of stable energy is always in the hands of those who are creative and can use the energy at their will. They have wings and become stable healers of this planet.

There are those that incarnate to point the way to those that want to find their way.

I want to write even more. I want to process, reflect, acknowledge the higher being that is at work in my life. Showing me the signs. Leaving their feathers to point the way to great happiness.

It's my birth month and I am entitled to having a productive and happy month.

Eagles, Hawks, Please Guide me.

Intense Vision

I woke up this morning around 6:15 a.m after having an intense (Vision) remote viewing session that was incredibly weird but very fascinating. I'll get into that later. I also had to pick up my sister and take her to work, which took me out of my usual routine of waking up so late. I'm a kind and gentle soul, so I didn't mind going to get her.

My motivation was to just be helpful and be of service to the less fortunate. Her car had shut down and my mom refused to wake up in the morning to take her daughter to work. There is a reason behind the story that will only anger and confuse people, but I told my sister not to let it consume and to think positive about the situation,or at least try.

I have met many people that have become consumed by the worst case scenario often worrying themselves into a heart attack or a mental break down. I've been in relationship with women that don't let go. A Father that grips the past, like a Raccoon that grips crash in its hands.

I like to think I'm not like the common people, but I just recently got out of a 1 year and 3 month relationship with a girl that I truly admired. I can admit, that I wasn't the most faithful of souls and the relationship felt emotionally gripping and felt blocked from my true self and having to sacrifice my freedom for the sake of the relationship. So even though she claims it's over. I do part of the time, but I'm still reluctant to not contact her. So, Text, call, and whatever.

As a person of small habits. I do know how to break a few habits, slow and little. I formed a schedule that I'm really trying to stick to, to ween myself out of contacting her. It's not something a usual person does, but I'll get the point if I'm constantly ignored. I can't help it sometimes.




This morning, how special I felt. I was able to see my sister off to work. Saw my niece and nephew also. I dropped them off at the baby sitter's house and hugged them and they went off. I gave both of them a hug and then they went into the house. My niece then comes running back out and gives me another hug and says. Uncle J you are warm.

That made me want to get teary eyed. That was definitely a special moment. My nephew always smiles and is happy around me. They will start school soon and I wish them luck. My niece will be in the first grade and nephew will go to the third grade. They remind me of how my little sister and I used to be growing up; sort of. They are some talkative creatures.



Spirituality has always been an interest of mine. Seeking the unknown and being able to see the unseen. The Hawk came to me yesterday. I was thinking about how I could be a model to society when it flew on a tree right in front of me. As a power animal that has always been with me, it appears to guard and protect me whenever I feel the most vulnerable.

What does the symbol mean?

It felt that it meant for me to let go of any baggage and to fly to a place where I can reflect and feel happiness. Although I've spent about 2 1/2 weeks in the U.S.A I'm happy and uncomfortably sad at the same time. I'm happy that I get to eat the foods that I'm used to, but I don't have a car to get around like how I want to. There is the bus and I can learn how to use public transportation one of these days.

The Hawk, Precision,Planning, Strategy, Harmonizing, listening to the omens, visionary skills. To see beyond what I can see. The hawk's number is 14 and my name number equals to 68=14=5. So I really take any type of omen from the hawk seriously. What I do with the knowledge doesn't really appear until I speak with people or do something that people wouldn't ordinarily do.


This morning in the middle of the night. I was able to see things with my own two eyes in the dark. There are moments in time when I am in between sleep and awake, when I can see these images of random things. People making love, machines from the future.

I felt like I was looking into a t.v while my head was under the blanket, seeing all these fabulous images.I felt like I was awakening to some strange power that was given to me by the hawk. Over-time I'd be able to master it somehow and pierce through the veil that keeps us into this reality.

There was a trick to seeing such images. I had to look up-towards my third eye (middle of my forehead) for it to work. And to just watch and not think. As soon as I started thinking I could literally see the background images get lit on fire and burn way. As that happen. I saw the constant flow of purple haze flowing within my field of vision.

Temperance- To Harmonize, To mix, heaven and hell.Self Mastery.
With that said. I'm between happiness, freedom, restriction, and darkness. It'll get better as I light the path with my own life force and light.


Whenever I look at these photos. I there is a noble person in me standing against the wall with a smirk on his face.

The Eagle Has Landed

The Eagle Has Landed

I’ve finally conjured of the energy to write and put down on paper the rush of thoughts that scatter within my brain cells.

I’m finally home in the U.S.A and I’ve been here for two weeks already. After about two weeks is good to control my thoughts and to in the flow of the universe as it always unfolds. The U.S. It’s big, beautiful, and there air is unusually clear and easy to breathe. August is gives HOTLANTA its name. It is incredibly hot out here and I sort of like it.

I had traveled from Seoul to Tokyo, Tokyo to Seattle, Seattle to Pheonix, Pheonix to Atlanta. It took nearly a 20 + hours to arrive. So let’s backtrack and reflect on the first days of my U.S.A trip by starting off with me landing in Hartsfield Airport Atlanta. I landed around 10:15 p.m August 6, 2011 and was greeted by my teary eyed mother after two year and a half long journey. . We haven’t seen each other in that amount of time and it feels good to be around the blood-line every now and again, especially after so long. I started to feel that I was raised by Korean Tiger Wolves.

Throughout the two weeks, I met new people and old friends. Attended a few soccer games, scored five goals and had about 5 assists so far. I shopped for a ton of things food, shoes, clothes, underwear, glasses, hair products, deodorant, the works! I was definitely deprived of all the things I am used to and enjoyed seeing them once again on the shelves of familiar stores like, Walmart, Beauty Supply Stores, and Krogers.

I got time to spend time with my sister and her children. My mother and I met up with her at a delicious Mexican restaurant. My favorite food, so far I gained 300 lbs living off of Mexican food. My mother cooked all of her favorites which included spaghetti with meat sauce, potatoes salad, golden mushroom chicken with cheese sauces. I ordered foods from Zesto ( The greasiest place on the planet). It is famous for it’s ice cream.

I promised myself that I won’t become an American statistic so I planned on working it all off as soon as I gained it. I may have to spend my precious vacation money on health foods and being active. I do pray that the angels watch over me and allow me to go to and fro, injury free.

Over the weekend I got a chance to see my nephew play in his first Football game. He looked good playing and was very active. I saw most of the game. The game had its moments when it was unbearable to watch. Some of the children on the opposing team were 5 times bigger. The parents were extreme fans of their children. You can hear the dad’s screaming at their sons to suck it up. I was lucky enough to play a game where my dad didn’t understand anything about soccer. It’s just not what African American boys do, or did I take a slightly different path.

I took pictures most of the game. They aren’t professional but they will do the job. My little niece loves posing in front of the camera. It’s fun to capture memories of the young ones. I sometimes pick up a photo album of the time I was young and enjoy seeing all of them.

This morning I finally went to church that I attended around the age of 14 or so. I headed to the High Museum. I was so hungry though, I wish I had eaten before I set foot in that place. Zesto’s saves me when I need something quick and greasy to clog the arteries Yum. I asked Koreans where the Kimchi was in the states. They supposing have it all at H-Mart.

July 6 (Never Ending)

I finally conjured up the energy to make a new blog!



Introduction

There are a billion things running through my mind right now. Lighten up Sixth MOON!. My brain is on fire and I've feeling a bit guilty for taking such a long break from working. For the past two months Korea has stressed me out to where I thought I'd develop brain cancer or something.

It's good since I haven't had much time to vacation for the past two years. I'm over-due. These three months will give me time to travel around Korea and the United States.I will visit my family, shop around for shoes and clothes, eat foods that I haven't eaten in a while, become more fit. Ultimately, just be myself, I guess. There are these astrological readings that I've been meaning to get for the longest. Being in the U.S will help replenish my energy with what I am used to, versus, what I recently got used to.


Life is filled with terrible endings and Fresh Beginnings. I had a terrible ending with my school in Pohang, moved to seoul and now I'm tucked away in the smallest apartment known to man. (It's great to have a place to stay without working however). The ending to Transformers 3 was even worse. I want those 3d glasses as compensation for having to endure it.



These three months will give me ample time to study anything of my choosing. Time develop a financial plan and stick to it through out the remainder of my life. I've created lists upon list, but I'm always missing the fact that I ought to get out of my comfort zone and explore some foriegn lands.



Plan! Plan! Plan!

The first thing to do is to initialize or create a strategy, a well-formed plan and follow it. I know there will be some emergencies and unexpected happenings that may occur throughout my break, such as natural disasters, health problems, or accidents. I never really consider them in any of my plans because I feel that I am guided by a higher spiritual form that has absolute protection over me.

To help me a little on my journey I bought a few books at Kyobo book store in Gangnam. How To Win Friends and Influence People by Dale Carnegie, Witch of Portebello by Paulo Cohelo, Personal Finance, and Eat,Drink, and Be Healthy.




I bought all these books to help me remain my true-self. To be healthy, to interact and maintain healthy relationships with myself and others.

I was a bit pissed today walking around the neighborhood. There are so many unhealthty restaurants in the world. I find it amazing how people are living after while eating the worst foods, breathing the worst air in. The only thing I am doing about it, is by being a living example of what a person should do. Seeking ways to maintain healthy in this filthy place we called our world.

Unexperienced Knowledge

Could you believe I asked my girlfriend several times why she keeps reading so many books? I wonder what she does with that knowledge sometimes. I swear she lives in her head more than I do sometimes. There are always opportunity to explore new worlds out there and she wants to just sit and read a book sometimes, which can be frustrating for me and my explorative nature. It's Korean culture to just sit and read, but not experience. I like having a little bit of both in my life.
I was told by a seer to have a girl with a book in her hands instead of the one that is always Bitchin' at me. So maybe I shouldn't be too hard on her.

The answer I was looking for, was how she could apply into the actual world. Her place isn't as clean as it should be and I made her buy some cleaning agents and I offered to clean and organize her things. I detest disorganization and dirty things. So I am spending my vacation, doing things for others to benefit myself.

Stay Clean!

Do you keep your place clean? Why or why not? Books are usually organized and clean. I just hope she realizes how much her environment affects the way she approaches each day. I personally like waking up to a clean house, to have a clean day. I don't understand how people can live in filfthy environments? My ideas about people change once I see their place. A person's home tells you a lot more about a person's personality. A scattered home equals a scattered person.




The Virgo in me is always at work. Improving the lives of others and by serving others through hard work, logical analysis, and precision.

How could I have asked her those questions though. I am always reading all kinds of books and they are mainly for infromation gathering for my next adventure, never actually for pleasure. I'm trying to change that too become more relax, balanced, and easy going.




Don't be a critic

Whenever I start to criticize, I try to force myself to smile. Smiling help produce memories of when things unfold as they should, usually for the best. There is a spirtual reason why I am in the situation I am in and for me to create a better future, is always at my finger tips. People with Eagle Totems are known to be picky and have sharp tongues.

Scattered Thoughts

As time goes by those thoughts will settle into visualizing into tomorrow. I hope the next few blogs will be series and a way for me to explore the potential future filled with excitement, positivity, and balance. Ocean, Good Food. I worked hard as hell for my experiences and the money that came along with it. It's time for me to reap what I sowed for the past two years and make good use of it. Growth! Growth! Growth!

I hope to write each day to help my mind settle and come up with great plans for the future and my vacation. I will remain true to myself and continue to seek a way to stay beautiful and harmonious with my surroundings.

Objective:

Finacial Mastery
Health Food Mastery.
Vacation Mastery
Photography Mastery





The sky is falling!!

Living for thy self.

Windy Day

Here is a short blog before I end my day. My head feels heavy. My body is still shaking. I'm lost as to waht to do for my future. I have a soccer game tomorrow along with my 1 year anniversary with my Korean girlfriend. It's my longest relationship ever in the entire history of my life. I do enjoy her company, even though she is a bit sensitive and moody. I guess you can say we are simliar people, despite our background, culture,personal likes and dislikes.

I watched the movie Thor. We went to the Arcade. Went to the store to buy a planner, pens, notebooks. Went to the Beach. Ate some sort of Pork Bone Soup. In the PC Bang playing Pangya for a few hours. Over-all it was a good day but still some what a depressing day for myself.

Bear Moments

I have about 30 minutes before I hit the gym. Today I want to write down my experience with the bear totem.

During class today. I had one of my Korean studies start to blurt out all the bears that she could notice inside the classroom.I did notice that there were a lot of Teddy bears as erasers, book covers, and other neat things you could put teddy bears on or make into.

Earlier that day. I was watching a clip over and over again that had me laughing constantly "inside my brain" for a while. One of the actors mentioned Bear-Baiting and I didn't know what It was,so I looked it up. It's crazy stuff, noble people tortured bears in England. They are always tripping over there.




The clip I heard "Bear Baiting".

The first thing that ran inside my brain was the idea that I discovered a new totem for the day. I wonder what it means. I wonder what the totem is trying to tell me.

The keywords for a bear are leadership,solitary,healer, grandfather,peace, and warmth. There are a billion other meanings that I can't think of write now, but I hope to learn the BEAR lesson and incorporate its teachings into my life. It's going to be rough since I have too many addictions and projects that I am thinking of, starting, but not completing. I swear I have to be more productive some how.



We will see. I'm off to go to the gym for an hour or so, play Tera for a couple of hours, then sort the videos and pictures I took over the weekend. I might spend all night sorting through pictures. I need to go back into my memories. Maybe watch Princess and the Frog tonight.