Full Moon Tonight

It's a full moon tonight, how lovely is that for such a passionate person of the moon. I just came outside from soaking in the moonlight and set down my stones,my jug of water, and placed my feet on the ground to absorb the lunar light fragments sprinkled all over the place. Now I have re-energized crystals and a jug of water that has been hit by the lunar flames of the night. I spent roughly an hour outside just thinking about the up and coming month and reflecting on the previous accomplishments since the last full moon. I was fascinated by the accomplishments but I still have much to release.

The obstacles I still have to over come are the issues I hold inside about my ideas of my family. I have charge up my root and sacral chakra because they are closed. I took this chakra test and that assured me that I needed to do something about it. I started meditating with my red and orange stones and eating orange food such as carrots. My meditation was geared towards charging my chakras with red and orange light. I already do some heavy physical exercises so, that didn't but instead of running I began to walk. Walking allows me to stay in my body and feel my legs picking up off the ground and move. I began taking hot baths and feeling my body as I lay in the water, massaging my legs and feet with baby oil. It's soothing. I just feel that I have to come back to reality, my higher chakras are and harmonized, however without a strong foundation there isn't much hope for survival. The root chakra is the base of survival and fearlessness. I am that of a fearless warrior but going through the ascension process I had to release a lot of things so suddenly which hampered them chakras so much.




Right now I am surrendering to my spirit and letting go all the contracts I have with anything. I am relying on my own sources for power and wisdom of how to do this. The images that come up in my head is being by water, owning my own apartment, with Internet and begin making money by selling my creativity. I love to write stories and what not, so this month I am going to set it all up. I have my pay pal account finally set up to make money, I am thankful for Joseph for his guidance to help me make that happen. Without him I'd probably still rant and rave about why having a job is meaningless. I am working though, just not in this reality, I believe I am hanging out in higher realms because I don't even get the T.V. anymore the television urks me , time is moving a lot faster, so I just have to keep up.

On top of that I was reading my ascension book and I cleansing my soul through deep meditation. 20 mins feel like 2 minutes now the better I get at it. all I do is focus on breathe and white light. Sometimes when I wanna focus on love, I used past relationships to help with that aspect. I've shown and received lots of love with plenty of women, but sometimes I rejected it because I felt unworthy, now I don't have to feel unworthy. Society teaches us this and it's really not a good thing if you want to obtain personal truth.

Today, I ate a crap load of cookie dough, don't worry I had health foods all day. Cookie Dough is my addiction, but I rarely have it now since I don't have my own source of income at the moment, but when it happens I will have a fridge full of it, but not to much I don't want to lose my "Six-PAC". My light is becoming more powerful though, the better music i listen to the more orbs I see during those moments. It's fascinating although I only see them for a half a second ,it's fun to see these bright little buggers light up randomly out the side of my eye. I just want to see them permanently and be able to ask them questions. I feel my guides at time resting on my right arm. Like they are trying to get my attention.


There is one thing that bugs me is that my family especially my mom and sister, wants me to retire them and buy them a house. If I don't they call me selfish. :( Why did that do that to me? Did I allow this because society tells me family first no matter what. If i asked them for a house, a car, even other fancy things, they will close up their purse and say get a job. So no, sorry, I chose my life to be free. They even tell me that since I don't have kids I should be able to do this. That's very lame, who teaches these people to say such things. I never had that belief even though I was raised in the same environment as them. I just believe I am a lone wolf trying to make a living. My spirit wanted to stop pursuing goals just so I want become wealthy and feel obligated to provide these things for the family. Now I say screw it, they can bust their ass and work hard to gain their own fortunes and I can have mine things. I created my reality, but I was easily influenced by the concept of family staying together, but with their thoughts I beg to differ and no one should have to put up with it. "As if it were a blessing that I didn't have kids, I used condoms really and acted responsibly in the bed that's pretty much it. No condom, No sex, no kids" I don't figure that's to hard but oh well. Now I want my G-35 , spacious apartment, work desk, living by the beach and I won't let the economy stand in my way. Well enough of that, the Moon and my higher self will grant my wish.

Every full moon I set my intentions on bettering my life. Right now I want to focus on the forgiveness aspects. It's easy for me to tuck things away and forgive easily, but right now I refuse to forgive people who be little me at times, but I want to release that. I am the source of my own power and I do not need anyone telling me how to live my life. I can take suggestions, but its up to me to accept it or not. However, I do attract a lot of people without having to say a word, mainly its because of my physical body, I presume. Being 6'4 and willing to smile at anything and everything shoots of invitations, my teacher told me to work on that lol. So here is the list I am making, by the NEW MOON I am going to double check what I have done.

-Learn Forgiveness and Forgive myself and those that have abused me, hurt me, intentionally or unintentionally.

-Charge my root chakra and sacral through meditation and physical exercises, allowing my creativity to flourish

- Focusing on creating and abundant cash flow so that I can become independently wealthy, because I deserve it, my spirit urges for it.

-Working with my gifts and energy manipulation

-Releasing attachments and psychic contracts ( ALL OF THEM)

-Enjoying fun and games; allowing my self to relax every once in a while.

Well I don't want to make work load to much, the above list is a lot of work for me and everyday is a chance to create an abundant future. Because I deserve it. DAMN IT!

Here is a favorite video game song that I like

Wolverine's Theme ; Street Fighter Vs. X-Men

Journey Towards to FOOD

I wanted to write on this fine night to help me with my journey towards greatness. I don't really have a formal quote or anything to write, but we'll see what comes out of my mind as I write. I usually have pictures on my site, but this crazy webpage is not letting me load any!!

I went grocery shopping today with my roommate. We finally was able to afford food, we decided that we wanted to continue to exist here on planet earth. Instead of buying gas and paying for bills, we were taught in science class that food is energy and we need it. I guess we want to live a little bit longer for now. I actually don't pay for anything, as I transition into Independence, I just need someone to take care of me through my ascension process. People will think I am crazy if I went out into the real world now. But I am not, I do believe in Aliens and washing my hands before I eat ! :) My roommate and I created wonders out of 20 dollars, its a lesson of conservation. I think we passed. Although we brought $21.20 worth of food. ( DAMN TAXES). I am a perfectionist so I was a little upset that I didn't calculate that in, oh well. We have Turkey Bologna to make up for it.

After grocery shopping ,we headed to the dollar Theatre, Actually the movies cost $2.50 on the weekends. :( Why do they call it the dollar movie theatre if the ticket prices aren't a dollar all the time. False Advertisement!!!. Oh well, it was a pretty nice theatre. I missed out on a lot of movies during my transition and I was finally able to see Forbidden Kingdom. I want to be a Traveling Monk now.I want to go on an enchanted journey and become an immortal. So I can conquer worlds and enjoy new sites. The world is such a dull place sometimes. I think the Internet is the best world I've seen so far. What a magical movie that was!. . Owning a big house and fancy cars seems boring. I want to own my powers and manipulate the people that create M&M's so they can deliver free bags of M&M's everyday to my door step. The force is with me !!! But it is a fun movie. I recommend it to anyone. The kid reminds me of myself, I've always had a passion for martial arts and fighting. It's very fun to participate. My favorite PlayStation games are Street Fighter, SNK, Samurai Showdown, and Fatal Fury.

So I think in a couple of my past lives I was a magical fighter of some sorts. Probably was hired to protect, since I like protecting people in and guiding people in this life time. Well actually I quit that, because people don't want help anymore these days. I just hate seeing people destroy themselves over nothing. Oh well, I was told I am only responsible for myself. I am just here to think positive and do whatever I want. Especially since I have the ability to see orbs at random. These bright lights are kind of nice, but they flash at random times.

Martial Arts has been a passion of mine ever since I was a kid. I practice Tae Kwando and received a red belt before moving away into a far distant town. Into hell actually, but that's another story. I was a bad ass, and won 3rd place in my first ever tournament. I didn't do all the yelling, I just focused my energy on my feet. I was pretty strong as well, I remember kicking this one guy through the pad and he had to go throw up or something. I wonder what kind of damage I can do now. I'll probably kick down a couple of trees tomorrow to find out how powerful I am, maybe I lost it. I won't know until I find out. I did read in a Samurai Philosophy that games are a waste of time and a noble man is the one that trains, studies, and trains some more. A leader always has to look good because people will look up to him and follow his noble ways.

I kind of want to watch a bunch of martial arts films today. I played a little Guild Wars finally, I wanted to kind of take myself out this world for a while, and help focus on journeys and quests in the games. It will help me with this life as well. People think games are a joke, but they are actually quite useful, just depends on the games you play. So Guild WARS is not a game haha. There is life and death there, of course there is a restart button but still. The game tallies up the amount of death one has. So that's pretty meaningful, no real funerals but its still sad, seeing your man defeated by goblins that just zapped you with lightning and summon a dead army of flies . Oh well, I think this will be good for me anyway. I've been in serious mode these past days and really not getting anything done. My animal Tarot, told me I need to play a little more and start taking life a lot less seriously. I suppose, but I figured I had to break out of some mental patterns that keep holding me back some how. I am better now.


Damn, I write a lot; I apologize, but oh well. Tomorrow I am going to dive into creating articles and start making some money, so that I can finally buy food! I seriously only live to buy food. I think I am a good writer. I don't have any money on me now and the only way out for me is to write. Gas prices is ridiculously high and I have to use my resources. Which is my laptop, the Internet, and my skills. I have tons of education, I felt that I disrespected myself because I was settling for these low dead end jobs. I am a freaking genius and I can't be messing with small time stuff anymore. I don't have any formal experience, but I know I can do any job I set my sites on. Most jobs are pretty boring, I don't know how many people are bored with their jobs, they get paid to be in jail is how I see it lol. When I find out my worth I will on top of the world. I dissaprove of being bored. Everyday is a learning process anyway, the Internet and library has tons of information on every subject. I in fact picked up a website design page because I want to start bringing more star seeds together. It's fun to create. I also want to create my own free-lance writing web page. Hopefully that'll work out. I want to save money so I can buy a boat and live on it for all eternity. Row my butt to the Bermuda Triangle and check out the scenery, hopefully I'll disappear haha. Well this is enough for today. !!!!! I write to much!!

Scattered Thoughts, Scattered Memories :( Sad there aren't any pictures :(