Embark of Life Lessons
Plane Ticket Booked and I'm clearly ready for my journey to Texas, which will take place in about 13 days. I have way too much going on in my cerebral vortex to understand what I should be thinking about for long periods of time. My days are blurred together. The food in-between thinking and non-thinking tastes incredibly good. Thanks to my sister-in-law, she is an amazing Dominican cook !Mmmmm....
Re-incarnate fool
As I go through time, dying a thousand lives and being reborn into a billion more. The possibilities for a great adventure awaits me in the bosom of the unknown. I can't sense anything with my tender body parts, within the void but what awaits me are unrealized dreams that slept within the cradle of fantasy and illusion. A sudden Manifestation of these out of sight dreams are being planted with each thought and each step I take upon Mother Gaia.
Random Agenda
My heart is compelled to try new words and find out a new way of saying things without getting too far out of my shell. My inner-shell. The holidays are here and I'm torn with spending time with my neglectful and rejectful family members. All having their own materialistic agenda. My agenda is that of peace.
Trials and Tribulations
From being asked to leave by my mom from her place.. my supposed "home".. To being kicked out of my sister's place because of un-paid bills, transitioning to a hotel that I could barely afford. Now I'm staying with a close friend and his wife in side of a cold sanctuary. A sanctuary it truly is. Truly cold because they like to save on cash by keeping the heat off. I'll ask them to build me a fire. I buy the food, wash dishes and make sure the place is clean to keep my side of the rent. Laughs, Giggles, and a bunch of randomness. I found out my father has the possibility of having some life-threatening disease. :P My trip has been filled with lots of lessons and probably SH*T that I don't need to be going through but I am.
I'm definitely learning to Rely on thy-self because most people suck.. BIG BALLZ! Even the helpful ones that get mad if you need some alone time, they suck even more.
If I can't depend on others, who do I depend on for things... MY DAMN SELF...Self-Reliance and Transcendence have been "words for the month" this past month of November. I'm learning that I've transcended all that I need to. The universe has constantly informed me that the longer I mess or be around lower vibration people, friend or foe, family or stranger. They will be re-moved either by confrontation or spontaneously. Over-time I'v heard that my spiritual being-ness is that of an evolved and high vibration spirit. That's like a double-edge sword. I'm able to attract tons of souls but I'll most likely teach them a thing or two and feel alone with in the relationship. The universe is teaching me to be strong, to rely on my own power, resources, imagination, and strength to bring about positive changes within' my on life.
I'm not one of those entities that say he can speak with "God" or "Heaven" but I'm damn near close to it. The secret to obtaining a spiritual connection with the Almighty is to be Almighty clever. It's about using the discerning mind to see the subtle messages that are constantly provoking the subconscious to understand more about itself with the help of outside voices. My subconscious is constantly feeding itself.
Writing has always been a form of self- healing for me. I'm able to express myself in more ways than one. These days I'm experimenting with ways to write in a new more mind gripping way. A fantastic, more humorous approach. I have a large brain and brilliant untapped personality that doesn't come out so much through my writing. But I want it to. I want it so bad that I'll taste it later if it becomes delicious roast beef sandwhiches from Arby's.
In the end, the universe is showing me some invaluable and valuable lessons at this time. I write to "clarify" to unite all the inner-ness into an organized fashion. I write to understand what these lessons mean and how I can pass them with flying colors. There are still repeating themes that occur in my life, hopefully before this life is over, I'll be able to master them. Writing empowers me. It unites my conscious and subconscious mind, the universe. My wish is to meet more like-minded people and to keep them around.
YES!!
