Silent Cooling Sensation

Very fulfilling day today. ....

What did I do? Sometimes I forget because I am always diving into something new. Writing has been a form of meditation for me albeit my mind is persistant at going off into the end of the universe with ideas. Oh well.

I woke up this morning to find myself very tired but I woke up to take ruby out. She was wimpering beggin me to take heroutside. I am actually waking up earlier these days instead of 2pm. I wake around 12am. YAY!. 11 am before that but oh well. It's a work in progress. My saying always goes, its not what time you wake up, its about what you are doing while you are awake. I spend most of my time in my waking days worrying about whats next when I should be in the present moment. I kick myself in the shins for always thinking to far a head. But I am visionary I can see into the future and into people's minds!

The more I become my true-self I find time whizzing by and I am able to do things a lot lot faster than I used to. I guess its because I am able to organize my thoughts and excute them properly. Nothing much went on through out today. I focused on my myspace page today. I work with it alot in order to explore myself. YEs exploring oneself is fun ( The spiritual way)!. My page used to be dull and I guess I was more focused on trying to attract a mate rather using other people's tatics than being myself. :P I notice I am not being messaged that much because of the fact I am being myself. Oh well, I guess the ones Ive been attracting aren't good for me anyway. Girls love to whine and complain about silly things, these days.
Myspace.com/jmonie02 for those that are interested.

So I made my girl friend the PEN. She is sexy and does whatever I tell her to do. Her ball point lets out a sexy ooze of black ink onto the nice silky paper on command. Thats my kind of woman! Welll enough of that. My space is fun if your able to work with the technology. I found a few new layouts for my page, which were very flamboyant, but who cares. I picked light blue with abstract figures on it . My spiritual powers is influenced by the wind and water. The water reflects the sky, and the sky heals. I see clarity when I look up to it. Very nice indeed, especially in parks. In the cities, the sky looks dull and smoggy. I hate that. I am a nature boy, many of my friends called me a flower child. I guess thats right because flowers have lots of power. I don't do the weed thing because I've known to many people with hyper brown yellow teeth. That is unattractive, I am the lover of beauty and a glass of water makes me high enough. I am naturally gifted with randomness so I dont need anything to trigger even more insanity.
I just feel the world can't keep up with a little free-spirited-ness !!. Speaking of that. I found a friend that I spoke with during college. I'll call her CASS because she is very eccentric and likes to talk. I found that we both like to write and my spirit moved me to send her a few notes. :P She is funny and outgoing. Sounds she is part of the mystical crew. She brought ferret as a pet which seemed mean because in one of her pictures he bites her. WEll I just posted on up of Ruby attacking me. Ruby does that sometimes , as if she is possessed. Spontaneously runs aorund the house and starts to nip everything. I guess she was bored and needed excitement but we can't do to much in our situation.


Hmm after working on the page I looked the book "Voices of knowledge" That is by far my favorite book. I recommened to anyone trying to find themselves. I forgot the author's name but its in my book list. Yea i am a philospher at heart. could you believe I made a C in that class. My teacher was a prick. I failed everything accept the final. I recieved an A on it, I did study alot and found philosophy very satisfying. Everyone had their beliefs and such which made the world go round. Those people made the world go round. Out of the box thinkers are the ones that rule the world. The dormant people believe in everything everyone else believes. That's why my god is the moon. She seems fun and controls the currents and our emotions. There is proof but I dont need proof that she is guiding me.

Today I had tuna in a can , pasta with tomatoe sauce and peanut butter jelly sandwhich. Flip the list around and that was breakfast, lunch, and dinner. :) I am creative when it comes to eating. Although I did eat some muffins and cake icing today. mmmmmmmm but i worked it out by doing crunches, pushups and other physical activities. I want to run tomorrow. Running is so much fun, thats how you get the real women! Being able to show them you can run up a flight of stairs without being tired is a true gift. ehhh hmmm *clears throat * "STAMINA!".... Lets not get all vulgar here.

I spoke with my spiritual guides today and they were checking on my spiritual energy while I was washing clothes. They told me my energy was all over the place and that I needed to focus on one thing at a time. :P I seriously have a problem, because my energy surges. I have a restless nature, there is so much to do during this life time.but in order to move forward with my life i have to master one thing. I decided modeling and writing was the two I would go after. PErhaps modeling, I can make a lot for standing around and looking half decent for the world. I truly want to be a movie extra. I do have some confidence issues at times. The photographers are confusing or want to much. Im like imma dude all i have to do is stand there and look pretty. :P DAMN IT! Other than that I don't know . I decided that I was going to work on my other myspace page I haave up and running for modeling. Ill set up the links to everything sooner or later.

I also was tempted to organize and edit every blog I have written. I wanted to read and see where my heart truely lies. I found that I hate MIS and deskjobs. Selling stuff is something I hate to do. I don't like to lie either, that dormants my healing abilities. I was considering going back into soccer but I want to see what else i can master. Who knows!. Ill probably be a famous random kid running around the tv screen. Im 6'4 1/2 so hopefully ill find some interesting work in modeling. HMMM......... This is long as hell..

I got to speak with my twin today. She is fun to talk to . Her birthday is just a day before mine and we are both on the same wave legnths is really fun to know that you have an exact replica running around doing the same things your doing but in a different body haha. The signs weren't very clear to me today from the heavens but I guess finding focus was the main message.

OOOH I watched the shows on on Rappers and their wives. Really crappy show.
I need to defintely comment on this. I think E or something, that channel that are obessed with celeberties. Those people actually make money talking about famous people. What a waste of time I think. Money, sexy and drugs causes problems unnecessary ones. The reason the t.v was even on, roomate figure happend to watch it. I noticed the rappers were making so much money and buying teeth, jewelry, cars , diamond shoes. Im like what the hell. They claim they are trying to save the world with their music, but its making everyone even dumBer. Im sorry I have nothing against it but its like why are you puttin on an act just to make money and thats not even you. Thats highly fake to me and I could never do something like that. They have all these kids and they are going to grow up thinking its ok to call women "bitches and hoes". Run around wanting this and that, without proper education. :( so sad! . And those people really think they made it life. Thats true but there is more. They made it in a realm with no true value. Kids are dying each day in the caves trying dig out diamonds. There are rappers rapping about it and still buy diamonds. 3 million dollars worth. If it were me, and I had that type of cash. I would defintely open up a school to help teach the true meaning of life. The way I would make my money is to use my creativity. Hopefully that will inspire younger generations to use positive outlets whether it be anger or happiness. Allow their spirits grow naturally and not artificially. 3 million dollars can go to books and faciilities so that the children grow up finding their niche in the world of creation. Our field trips will be going to sites like egypt, gallapagos island, crystal hunting, creating art, enforcing love one another. Perhaps thats my mission in life. No matter what I am going to be myself through the process the whole way. Staying healthy and in shape is apart of that process, especially associating myself with the right people constantly. Not call a woman out her name just for publicity. Come on now. :P oh well. Thats my view, very different and I am going to stick to it.

I remember the days when I got pissed. I would put in a fighting game whether it be street fighter or bloody roar and beat the "SHI*! out of the enemies because I was so pissed at the world at times. Very creative outlet in deed. I recieved many secret charcters and it allowed me to beat more ass lol.

Ok, Im out, I wonder what adventure I have tomorrow. Pray that I stay focused on one thing at a time. I had to put away 5 books that I was reading. Books are distrations to me because I want to learn it ALL. is. MWHAHAHA. I guess I do need to find a woman to distract me from taking over the world.

The word for today is Durable - Able to exist for a long time without significant deterioration also: designed to be durable.

Example:
Jamaal is a durable young man. He was designed to take on the garbage of the world and transmute it into holy light for the future of all.
Note to self:.. You created a book based on psychic protection, meditation,and the element WATER info for your enlightenment. USE IT.

EVIL LAUGH: MWAH HA HA ..... HA HAHAH!