Intense Vision

I woke up this morning around 6:15 a.m after having an intense (Vision) remote viewing session that was incredibly weird but very fascinating. I'll get into that later. I also had to pick up my sister and take her to work, which took me out of my usual routine of waking up so late. I'm a kind and gentle soul, so I didn't mind going to get her.

My motivation was to just be helpful and be of service to the less fortunate. Her car had shut down and my mom refused to wake up in the morning to take her daughter to work. There is a reason behind the story that will only anger and confuse people, but I told my sister not to let it consume and to think positive about the situation,or at least try.

I have met many people that have become consumed by the worst case scenario often worrying themselves into a heart attack or a mental break down. I've been in relationship with women that don't let go. A Father that grips the past, like a Raccoon that grips crash in its hands.

I like to think I'm not like the common people, but I just recently got out of a 1 year and 3 month relationship with a girl that I truly admired. I can admit, that I wasn't the most faithful of souls and the relationship felt emotionally gripping and felt blocked from my true self and having to sacrifice my freedom for the sake of the relationship. So even though she claims it's over. I do part of the time, but I'm still reluctant to not contact her. So, Text, call, and whatever.

As a person of small habits. I do know how to break a few habits, slow and little. I formed a schedule that I'm really trying to stick to, to ween myself out of contacting her. It's not something a usual person does, but I'll get the point if I'm constantly ignored. I can't help it sometimes.




This morning, how special I felt. I was able to see my sister off to work. Saw my niece and nephew also. I dropped them off at the baby sitter's house and hugged them and they went off. I gave both of them a hug and then they went into the house. My niece then comes running back out and gives me another hug and says. Uncle J you are warm.

That made me want to get teary eyed. That was definitely a special moment. My nephew always smiles and is happy around me. They will start school soon and I wish them luck. My niece will be in the first grade and nephew will go to the third grade. They remind me of how my little sister and I used to be growing up; sort of. They are some talkative creatures.



Spirituality has always been an interest of mine. Seeking the unknown and being able to see the unseen. The Hawk came to me yesterday. I was thinking about how I could be a model to society when it flew on a tree right in front of me. As a power animal that has always been with me, it appears to guard and protect me whenever I feel the most vulnerable.

What does the symbol mean?

It felt that it meant for me to let go of any baggage and to fly to a place where I can reflect and feel happiness. Although I've spent about 2 1/2 weeks in the U.S.A I'm happy and uncomfortably sad at the same time. I'm happy that I get to eat the foods that I'm used to, but I don't have a car to get around like how I want to. There is the bus and I can learn how to use public transportation one of these days.

The Hawk, Precision,Planning, Strategy, Harmonizing, listening to the omens, visionary skills. To see beyond what I can see. The hawk's number is 14 and my name number equals to 68=14=5. So I really take any type of omen from the hawk seriously. What I do with the knowledge doesn't really appear until I speak with people or do something that people wouldn't ordinarily do.


This morning in the middle of the night. I was able to see things with my own two eyes in the dark. There are moments in time when I am in between sleep and awake, when I can see these images of random things. People making love, machines from the future.

I felt like I was looking into a t.v while my head was under the blanket, seeing all these fabulous images.I felt like I was awakening to some strange power that was given to me by the hawk. Over-time I'd be able to master it somehow and pierce through the veil that keeps us into this reality.

There was a trick to seeing such images. I had to look up-towards my third eye (middle of my forehead) for it to work. And to just watch and not think. As soon as I started thinking I could literally see the background images get lit on fire and burn way. As that happen. I saw the constant flow of purple haze flowing within my field of vision.

Temperance- To Harmonize, To mix, heaven and hell.Self Mastery.
With that said. I'm between happiness, freedom, restriction, and darkness. It'll get better as I light the path with my own life force and light.


Whenever I look at these photos. I there is a noble person in me standing against the wall with a smirk on his face.

Misty Rain!!

DUnno who he is, but i like his theme!

Today was a very stormy day. I did not wake up until 3 pm today. The ascension process is very exhausting, becuase I have the feeling that I am not here in this world anymore but I am going to keep acting like it for the sake of my body. :P Thunderclaps, Lightning bolts, and monsoon like rains came pouring down on the city today. The earth is getting heavy, but she is cleansing herself at all times. It was actually kind of scary to because I kept waking up out my sleep, just incase a torando or something started whiz by, but I instantly casted protection around the house just so that stuff won't happen.


I had a desire to read my Computer Security book and a few others to help motivate me to protect myself and gain my personal power back. Yes, I compare computer security with personal security. Computers are just like humans, but a different expression. There are your spammers, hackers, and others that come into your life to take your resources, energy, spam you with a bunch of garbage just for their sake. In the end it doesn't help you at all, they are just unloading worthless crap on you just for their personal satisfication. I am developing a mental virus protection as I upgrade myself into new realms. I know exactly what to look out for and lately I've been locking down myself waiting for the right time to spring up again. My computer has been my savior for the past year and I am thankful for it. It allowed me to connect with like minded people that have helped me with my long process.! :D

So all day was kind of disturbing for a while, all the crying, the raining, and I met an Asshole that claimed to be a spiritual teacher. He tried to be-little me every time he got. One of the topic of discussion was about working out to increase my brain capacity. He told me working out has nothing to do with developing your IQ and brain capacity. I believe that It did, because it allows the blood flow to your brain to increase and maximizes energy. People can use this energy for anything, I choose it to read and think better.

People brought up IQ test, but I feel that those tests are man made. The ones that are running the country right now don't even have high IQ, the ones with the highest are more likely slaves of society, holding on to their scores ranting about how much smarter they are in comparison. I also, told him it was hard for me to mingle with people and he had the nerve to call me a People Hater, I am like what? So yea, although people claim they are spiritual teachers, does not mean they are of the highest good.That guy was just old and fat probably with a bald head, ugly, I don't blame him for being angry lol? He started going off on other people as well. I bet they know his true colors now, I some how can bring out the worst in people and the best. Lucky me!

Watch out for these false priests, even Popes try to get their freak on with little boys, which is sick but the parents of these children do not teach their kids any better :(. They need to learn to defend their bodies and not let some old wrinkled guy come onto them, its just plain gross!. The lesson I've learned is not to waste my time. I actually told the guy that he bored me and he kicked me out the chat lol. Some teacher, reminds of elementary school, I used to crack on all my teachers because they were boring. Yes, I am definitely a system buster, mainly because I don't give a damn about a lot of things. I am just glad to be alive and I'll work myself around situations using my mind without fear or doubt. The universe always lines it's self up for the best.

I don't claim myself to be this ultimate holy person either, I don't need to be, I am not trying to be a priest, I just like to say whats on my mind whether it's right or wrong. I'll learn! XD. Yea, it was a troublesome day, my friend is sad because she did not graduate in 4 years, she will be graduating in six instead. She kept changing her major and became frustrated. I feel that we don't know what we wanna do with our lives because society has changed so much, there is no way someone can do one thing for the rest of their lives. It's been done in the past but the revolution is here. Multi-tasking at it's finest."Oh, I just saw an orb". I gave her my personal healing session, by explaining that she has done hard work and don't cast what she has learned in the past. She can be a power house in the future with all the skills that she has learned. I feel that a degree is a piece of paper and it doesn't define anyone, an object that is more or less a personal booster letting society know your seirous and motivated about yo STUFF! . School is boring as hell though.

I don't want this to be a long blog. But it was sort of a gloomy day and I played Guild Wars today which was a lot of fun. My D/Me is now a level 15 power house , he jumped 4 levels in the past two days I think? I am not sure, but it's mainly about skills in that game anyway. It's just a lot of fun to have tons of energy and health so that I won't die so easily. Dying is lame! lol Living is great! Only if your hanging with the right crowd, because people make life miserable and I honestly feel that you can catch cancer by just looking at those types of people lol. :P That's just me, I am sensative like that. I only desire to hang out with the cool kids, the litte people are the ones that believe that they are living just to die. The cool ones don't worry about age, dying, and finding there isn't anything to do. You find those people aging a lot less than most.

Here is my Character from Guild Wars!!! (I have two actually, but I'll post him later)